Thanks, UB. I feel like I could do that, if he would just go away and leave me alone.
Where I am stuck is that it bothers me when he comes after me. Or, worse yet, when he is nice, and nicely (albeit passive aggressively) says he just wants peace, or wants to talk, or whatever. One part of me wants to have that ability - OK, yeah, let's talk. I want to be able to respond to him, to have a good convo. But the other (much larger part) of me knows exactly where it will go, and that renders me incapable of doing anything other than just ignoring him altogether. (But still agonizing over ignoring him, because, WHAT IF he really is being genuine and I am just being a bitch by ignoring him?)
I think I am too tired to think after my D kept me up half the night last night. (Awake until 1:00, then woke up again at 4:40. Auggghh!)
Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe it will bring some clarity.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
