I know you SAY you want to be happy. But dig deep and see if there's more there, to wanting to be declared "right". B/c it's a colossal waste of time and it delays your arrival, at the other side of this...
I really think I am OK with not being "right." And honestly, if my H and I were working toward a better M, I would really be very OK with it . . . it's kind of a trade off, right? If I give up being right, I can have a happier M.
Now, it's not so much wanting to be "right." I mean, I have long ago given up on arguing with my H or trying to make him see my POV, or care about my needs or feelings. I know it's like banging my head against a wall.
At this point, it's more that I don't want to be "wrong" all the time. There is a difference. I am fine with not being "right," and let's just leave it at that. But he can't seem to just leave me alone - he has to constantly tell me how wrong and bad I am.
Does that make sense? Am I at least halfway there?
I had started to accept that he was happier without me, he had moved on, he walked away. He wasn't coming back. This was his deal, I couldn't change it, I can only control myself. And then, boom, now I am making his life miserable, I am horrible, terrible, etc.
This is hard sh!t.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
