Well it happened! And as much as I wished and prayed it wouldn't....
...WAW moved into and apartment last Saturday. Needless to say this weekend has been tough for me and the boys. WAW and I had a short talk the night before she left. She started crying and saying how difficult this was for her to leave the house and life she has known for the last 9 years. I empathized with her and we hugged and both cried a bit more. I wanted to say please stay and lets try to work on our M again, but I didn't.
I let her know that I still care about her and wish thing were different between us. I told her I was worried about her and asked her to be please careful out on her own. I let her know she could call me anytime of the day or night if she ever found her in trouble or in an difficult spot and I would do everything in my power to help her. (not sure if I should have said these thing, but it sure felt right at the time)
The boys did okay the first night without Mom, but last night was really rough and emotional for all of us. After S7 and S10 got off the phone with Mom to tell her about their day and say good night, they both started crying and saying they want MOM TO COME HOME. I tried to be strong for them, but I started crying with them and trying as hard as I could to empathize with them. I think I did a good job. We ended up calling Mom back and both the boys were still crying while talking with her. My youngest handed me the phone and WAW was crying too. She again, said how hard this was on her and asked me what she should do? Should she come home? I let her know she was more than welcome too. She didnt know if it would help or hurt as it was already WAY past their bed time. I agreed, but still left it open if she wanted to come over. She decided against coming over, but wanted to try to come over tonight if she gets out of work on time.
More to come, I just can't keep going right now.
Me: 39 W: 33 M: 9 years T: 10 years S7 S10 BD 10/19/13 W Filed 11/25/13 EA Confirmed 2/2/14 (no evidence of PA) WAW moved out 3/15/14