[BrightFuture]

NLT, thanks for stopping by. It is unfortunate that your H found this site on your computer. You did the right thing by not saying anything. I couple of times when I was at the vacation home and came to the office where my friends work, so I could get on the internet, I had this site open. I’m always very careful to switch to another page when someone is around me. It seems that they are always curious what I’m doing on my computer and come behind me take a look. So, a couple of time I was not fast enough to close it, so they might have noticed the name. I hope they are too busy to figure it out.

NLT, you are welcome to post on my tread, if you want to vent or need any feedback. And thank you for the positive thoughts. I need them now.

Well, I’m down this morning. It is another week, and I’m still looking for work. I’m trying really hard to stay positive.

H has been silent for two weeks now. This is the longest in the last few months. Usually he has some excuse to contact me one way or another almost every week. I’ve noticed that he transferred money to our joint account for condo mortgage payment yesterday, but he didn’t let me know this time. Kind of weird, especially after that weekend. Maybe he decided that he didn’t like what he saw after all, I mean in terms of changes. Or he didn’t see any changes in me. Or, he confirmed to himself that he did the right thing leaving me. All speculation, I know. I would think that he would have a lot of excuses to contact me now, the money, his pay that he mentioned he might need from the company, the taxes that I said I need him to sign. He might be depressed about the money though. Or, something else he going on in his head. It looks like he is running away again.

Oh well, I need to get back to me and what I want. I cleaned up some weeds on my back yard yesterday. Need to do more today and maybe plant some new flowers.