And after that whole thing about how important the kids are and how much they both need us and how H was going to FaceTime with S7 when I have the kids bc S7 misses him, and promising the kids when he dropped them off that he would FT them tonight . . . he didn't. We tried to FT H and got no answer.

I'm not saying this to rip on him and be negative. I'm just sad, and this is an example of why I feel like looking at H in a positive light just ends up being a disappointment. I know there must be a way to appreciate the positives and merely note the negatives without dwelling on them, so that I manage my expectations, but don't live in a constant state of resentment. Just need to find that place somehow.

ye, I'm not sure what you are asking - I work out at least once nearly every day, whether it's yoga or TKD or HIIT.

On the plus side . . . I had a fun day with the kids and a lovely dinner. Our friends' hamster (purchased last week!) had 6 babies, so we went by to see them and the kids played together while I got to chat with a good friend. I don't know what I would do without my awesome friends! smile Now my kids are BEGGING me for a hamster. I'm leaning toward yes, if we can somehow keep the cat from eating it. My kiddos made a leprechaun trap with a trail of gold, they are so cute. I wish they would never grow up! smile


me: 44 XH: 42
M 11 years
D10 and S8
Bomb drop 9/27/13
D final 7/1/14