Pretty rough weekend. The girls and I did go out of town, went to watch girls we know play college softball, dinner with spent the night with friends we haven't seen in a long time. And more softball. Just couldn't get the pit out of my stomach. Tried not to lose it in front of kids on the 3hr drive home....managed until I got home, told them I wasn't feeling well and went to my room and lost it. I am trying to keep it together for them, promised d15 I would take her shopping today.

I know I need to GAL and do things for me and time is my friend to make me feel better. It's just very difficult some times because I do just really miss talking to him. Kids go back to school tomorrow, going to try to get some sort of exercise routine going.


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since