Separate and Filed walking on

[paul19510]

journal: the snow along the roadside melted enough that I took my pup for a walk to the park today. its been a while and we needed it. We had a great time. The wind was colder than expected, but it was nice.

For some reason I've been having very vivid dreams about W and me talking visiting...fixing this mess... I wake up to find her not there and its a little unsettling. W avoids driving past our house now and takes the other way out of the neighborhood. Not sure why it feels strange, but it does.

I found my mind wandering through the situation while walking with my dog. Nothing changes. I had strange feelings of wanting to talk to her, but didn't act on them. Removing myself from this has been harder than I thought. I wanted to believe there was a way to save us. I have to stop that. its a process. I will walk on