Today is new day though, and I have my routine to do.

What routine bro??? Your life its not a routine!!its a joy my man!!

It has been hard lately because I question what I am doing. I have those recurring thoughts. That I still have disbelief in what is happening and how I got here. I feel time is closing in on me, and that very soon I will need to make some big choices. I am talking about my home, and where I will go from here. I have started looking at my options, so that when she says, this is it, I will have an idea what I will do. I wont lead the way on this, because I know this is her journey. But knowing my options I figure cant hurt.

Why are you question yourself? Dont you see that everybody in this forum does that? We question ourselves all the time...if you love yourself completelly you dont question...you accept, again its who you are, you are build of experiences and decissions and choices, let go and let God...

Also we cant see the future, but I can see that you walk around the house like "walking dead"? Is it like that? Do you walk all day thinking why this, why did I do "wrong", what is gonna happen and so on...

Dude relax, we have no idea whats going to happen, enjoy now, dont think about the repairs you will have to do before they buy the house, or the visits or whatever its on the future...think about today, how many bills I have to pay? Ok let me pay them....did I exercise? No, ok let me go to exercise...did I walk around? No, ok let me take a 20min walk with the headphones listening to "ENYA" a very relaxing kind of music...
Thats the way you take care of life....one step at the time.


When the student its ready, the teacher will appear...
Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me."
Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.