Limbo is the new normal

[slow_it_down]

10 months ago my H moved out. Today he's starting to move back in.

Our sitch is approaching the 2 year mark and things aren't perfect, but we are on the best footing I've felt in a very long time. Everything we both want and need to make things work is out in the open and we aren't walking on eggshells for a change. I'm cautiously optimistic that our worst moments are behind us.

I feel like we are at a good place where I can accept him for what he can offer and he's actively trying to give me more of what I need from him.

It will take some time to adjust to not having my own time and space like I do now living on my own, but I'm ready to see what life is like with us both committed to working this out. I'm excited he's giving up his own place and that we are consolidating furniture and finances so that he no longer has a backup plan.

It gives me great confidence that after all we've been through my H is still willing to be around my parents, siblings and friends even though he knows they aren't his biggest fans. Also my kids have been through the wringer but they still say they love their step dad and want him home even after all the ways he's hurt them.

In a way I'm thankful for all of the struggles of the past months. I feel like I see what is and is not important in other areas of life and have learned to be more accepting and loving toward people in general. Learning to GAL makes you a more interesting co worker and friend too so it's a good reminder to keep a balanced life. Plus I feel oddly closer to my H and like I know him better than I did before things got rocky. We both had to overcome times where it would have been easier to just walk away so I feel like if we can make it past this last part of piecing things back together there isn't anything life can throw at us that will be harder to survive than what we have already overcome.