Working on Divorce Busting every Day!

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Ok I'm going for a very difficult 180. For the next week on here I am only going to try and post positives about my H. I know all my friends and family told me all I did our entire marriage was complain about how horrible he was and I was never happy. They have stated that I seem so much happier and the only reason I wanted him back is because I just don't like giving up.
I am terrified to do this because I am afraid it will make me hurt even more the day the final papers are signed and I know our marriage is completely and irretrievably over.
One more thing the last week he is fine to text and call, lots to discuss with 3 young kids and he will iniate most of the texts.
But it's like he can't stand to be in the same room with me. He even had his dad here when I was nursing my son. I had told him this was fine before. He's not cold just like he cannot get away from me fast enough.
Perhaps his dad told him that our daughter 2 screamed at the door for me not to leave and I cried as I left. I know I have to detach but when your daughter is screaming don't go I cry.
Today when he walked in to pick the oldest up for judo the 2 tear old hugged him and said mommy your not leaving me are you.
Who knows why he is avoiding me. I just am trying to smile and be pleasant.
Okay positives:
Paid for 2 year olds Montessori. My parents paid for all 3 years of oldest because H refused to.
He is paying for a number of house repairs even though neither of us know who will get house 1.
He gave me another exercise tape from his collection without me asking.
2 weeks ago he told me to be really careful when I told him about indoor rock climbing. He said you could get hurt.
mind reading again.
Is this a good 180 for me? Or am I just prolonging the hurt in my heart. Everyone keeps telling me soon u will wake up and will care less if u ever see him again. Just not there yet.
Thoughts.
I will answer the response to my last post soon. Thanks for all of these.