I am waiting for him to arrive it has been a month he has had a holiday with the OW.. I am assuming I used to think the past few months that he drove 5 hours to badger me into accepting a separation. I did that last time.. arguing was going nowhere so i agreed we were separated.. he felt happier because then he thinks he is not having an affair.. well on his mind.. no one else thinks that and it ill always be adultery.. but that is his problem not mine.
Just read MICs comments on choosing to be happy... I have been focusing on do not cry.. do not let him see you are miserable alone etc.. but maybe it is better to focus on positives.. I am happy.. and I am happy he will be here.. I can choose to be happy.. I also need to remember that he seems to be hurting and confused too.. but I will be happy. It will good to have him here.. we will have some time to relax.. Positives are better than negatives...I hope that works.. thanks mic
