Well, you cant know how things are gonna happen man, you open your heart and thats it if they dont stay the pain will improve the chances something better will... Now I just want to tell you that you are doing great, and something that I keep hearing is "one day clarity will replace confussion" there you are...you are gaining some clarity clap clap to you bro
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.