When to Give Up?

[Upwards]

When I look back at the past few weeks I can see just how far i've come, at times it really doesnt feel like it but looking back now I know I have. I realise what is needed now for me to move forwards, I need to get myself into a good place and find out who I am and what I want from life, I need to build myself up and make a life for myself and my kids away from my husband and let him go on the journey that he needs to go on - if later down the line things change then I will deal with that then but right now I know I need to just get on with it and deal with whats happening at the moment. I know i'll have good/bad days but I have more clarity on the situation.

I've had my first IC session today and it was good, helped me get things straight and make sense of a few things - I think i've more or less accepted now that i'll never understand why he's made these decisions and choices so I need to try to put that out of my mind and just move forwards.

We've set up a meet up on Monday evening to talk (as we havent properly talked since this all happened) and both be completely honest about where we're at and how we ended up here, also to share what we want in our futures too. We also need to sort out some paperwork/finances and to talk about if we're going ahead with divorce, at the moment he thinks thats my intention but i've decided to delay for a little while until things are clearer in my head.