When to Give Up?

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ye21 - I know I need to put my needs first and focus on what I want instead of what HE wants, I cant control him but I can control how he affects me. I'm beginning to feel more detached so the 180 is definitely helping in that sense, his words/actions aren't affecting me as much anymore and I'm more able to let it go over my head. I'm still hurting and still having bad days but i'm getting up onto my feet much quicker each time, I have a long way to go but I can finally feel myself moving forwards again as i've accepted the situation and the way things are.

I hope you continue moving forwards and building yourself up, its very hard isn't it.

Breakdown - I suppose because I cant see any changes it feels like i'm not going anywhere but when I look back on the past few weeks and how much i've moved forwards it proves that I am going somewhere, all be it slowly!

I've made a "dream list" of all the things I want to do, sad thing is most of them I had planned to do with H which just upset me so I stopped doing it - i'm in a slightly better place though now so will have another think