Journal: All the initial paperwork is completed and there's nothing left to do but to have the L send it to W. Life moves forward. Still have questions in my mind sometimes as to Why...?

it no longer matters. it is what it is. w came by to pick up D13 yesterday. Was cold and distant. She's not even a friendly person. not at all a person I even know. I personally find this disturbing.

I am moving forward. I am doing what many have suggested. When I feel something, I realize that I do ad just let it roll. that's the only thing I can do.

when I read the divorce complaint, it says my marriage is "irretrievably broken" and that I have a right to request marriage counseling as part of this process. I guess even that state wants to make sure people don't jump the gun. UGH. this sukks


me: 47, W:49
M 16.5 years
T 17 years
Three kids - D17,D14, S13
Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13
Bomb drop 11/29/13
W moved out 12/5/13
I Retained L 2/20/14
D filed 3/17/14