How do you keep yourself from thinking about your S's future without you in it?
You recognize that those kinds of thoughts are not helping you, bur hurting you. You accept that you cannot control what your H does, only what you do. So you think instead about what you want for your future (that has nothing to do with your H), and you start doing things to get there.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14