Trying to keep busy but not having alot of success. The only thing I have going for me is H is not around to see me at my worst. A friend did come over yesterday and I went out for a little while to see another friend who is in town. It's nice when I don't think about the sitch at all. That doesn't happen too often.

Haven't been in contact with H since Monday which is difficult but I know it has to happen. He is at least keeping in better contact with the girls. Maybe he is feeling less guilty since time has passed.

Supposed to be headed out of town today, don't really want to go but it is better than sitting around moping!


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since