How do you do THIS part...

[ericmsant2]

Suckerpunch

Do you see an therapist on some degree of frequency? If not, then maybe you should give it a try. Are you on anti depressants? If not, then you may want to try those as well.

but my life doesn't seem to be moving forward.

What does moving forward look like to YOU? Can you describe in a little more detail what you want to see/feel/have in order to feel like you are moving forward.

It is just so hard for me to imagine how two people, partners, who were so loving at one time, who brought a daughter into this world that means more to them than anything, can end up where we are today.

Reflecting and pondering why, what happened, how could it happen….is not healthy. You cannot change the past SP…you can though change and write YOUR future. You may never understand why your stbxw became who she is today. IMO, it was a choice that SHE made for HERSELF. It is now time for YOU to make a choice for YOURSELF. A choice to drop the rope and begin to really focus on what YOU need to feel better about YOU.

I have accepted that I can't change it, so this morning I wake up, breath in, breath out and go to work.

Acceptance is one thing – letting go is quite another and that is where I think you may be struggling a bit. Let it, her GO. Train yourself to think of other things whenever you start thinking about her. Fill your days with laughter and joy. You can do it buddy! Ya just have to make that choice and keep working at it.