Any Vereine near by? Wanderwege? How about biking? More radius of action! Do you have your own car? See if you can get more control of what is going on... think and use the tools you have.

You know, at some point your sadness will probably have some anger added to it. Maybe it will help to focus more on the anger and not the sadness, especially given your H's behavior.

Luke

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M 1984, D 2016
Living a new life.