As a recovering alcoholic I have been in the program for a little over 18 years. Through my progression through the steps of the program and listening to countless stories......all the negative emotions boil down to one thing. That one thing is fear.
Every single 'bad' emotion, when extrapolated back far enough always ends in fear. For me, I had to surrender my control over to a higher power as I understand him. I understand perfectly what that power is capable of, I just like to take back control and f things up even further
But I will also share that when I can 'give my problem' into the care of something greater than myself, peace is found. This process for me and my current situation started two sundays ago. I gave up trying to control the situation and things got better. And then guess what, I took back control occasionally and suffered the consequences.
It takes faith of a sort which I sorely lack. If I can do it, others certainly can as well. Such a simple idea but like all things simple, extremely difficult to practice.
And last, 'drinking is but a symptom'. There are a whole host of issues buried under that......and I would argue the source of all those issues is fear of some sort. And last, last, 'and acceptance is the key to all my problems'. Remember, acceptance doesn't mean one needs to like what is being accepted.......
me 41 w43 married 20 years BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY.... 4 kids, 21,18,8,6
