It's Time to Sing a Brand New Song

[Mimi00]

Hi Melissa!
My last name is currently hyphenated. I may shorten it back to my maiden, I haven't really thought about it too much.
When a made my new resume, I used his last name just for design purposes, my first name and his last name have the same amount of letters....and I put my name "design-like" fashion at the top, with my first name on top of the last name. The last name means absolutely nothing to me...but yeah, I will probably rid of it.

I move March 31st... I can't wait!
Currently a skunk has taken residence under the stairs in front of my window (I live in a "garden"/basement apartment) this leads to many smelly nights. I filed an online complaint and called the apartment office to complain and they've done nothing.

As far as friends, I have always kept to myself... I didn't show my personality b/c I use to worry about judgment and to masked my worry w/ the excuse that people should have to "deserve" or be "worth it"for me to open up and show them me. So it's definitely a 180 for me to be more open.... let go of the fear of their judgement and also realizing I am "special" and hey why not gift people with my awesomeness a little more often?!

I definitely am able to get comfortable with people much quicker now and seeing that people do like my personality/accept me makes it easier (the more I think about it, the more I realize H made all my worst fears come true through this D and rejection of me). Also simply not caring what others think is the true lesson.

I will definitely be luckily to have 1-2 true & dependable friends where I live (I do have 2 good friends from college but we all live in different states)....but I wouldn't mind several friendly associates as well. I just want to have fun.

I've been so serious for most of my life, I've never really lived...I was always the girl who followed the rules....too scared to just relax and be myself in front of others. I focused on school & working until I was 23 then when I finished that I got married... I married someone who was fun and made me laugh and who i was 100% comfortable w/ being myself with...I thought we'd have many adventures, I thought he'd help me be more open, but I guess I was the stronger personality? b/c he changed to be more like me (which I never expected or wanted), then resented me for it. *shrugs* Ah well...

But I will definitely be careful with exposing my heart to just anyone.

Thanks so much for your post Melissa.