So, I really thought that I had accepted that my marriage was going to end in divorce. I realized today that the reason I get so upset when we communicate about splitting things up or changing the phone to my name, is because I had expectations that my H would "wake up" and stop this. The act of splitting stuff up is hard in-and- of itself, but there was another layer and i thought about it today.
It is hard to stop having expectations. I guess it is tied to true acceptance. It will be intersting to see when the dynamic completly changes when H "moves to Denver" April 1st. He is in no hurry to tell kids, and when we do, he will be gone. He also won't be staying in home when he comes to visit, unless I invite him. Maybe after the D acceptance will be easier. Does it get easier after D?
M45 H46 M16 yrs D17, D10, D7 DB 1-23-2014 H filed D 2-14-2014
