So I really worked on 'me' and the kids this week. I've been going to church as often as I can, even the kids seem to be enjoying it.
I have caught up with friends, been to see a band, doing things I would have done before I married. And I have felt ok, I mean still had some wobbly days, but ok. And the kids have been good too. It's easier when he isn't around. I didn't contact him, he didn't come over. (Which makes me so sad for the kids but I'm just doing what I can) he did text a couple of times, and my replies were brief and too the point.
Last night for the first time he offered to come over and watch the kids so I could go out. I think he expected me to turn him down, due to the lack of notice (he offered at 1630), and my usual lack of social life. But I took him up on it. I went out with a friend, got all dolled up and ran out. He asked when I'll be home, I replied not sure, and he said no problem. But while I was out (which was his idea remember) he starts texting me: 'Have you started looking for a full time job' 'I want the house sorted - whether you keep it or it's sold' 'When are you home - I need to get back, people are expecting me'
It totally ruined my night. The full time job comment - is that do he can take his money away? How about full time mother? I am struggling to work part time as it is! And full time would mean full time childcare. He never wanted our kids in childcare at all before, let alone full time! And the house stuff - where does he want his children to live? Or is he just in a hurry to break all ties? He has never mentioned this before. Why offer me a night out if he didn't really want me to do it? He hasn't bothered before. He is really quite nasty over the phone, but never says it to my face. I even asked when I got home that he please refrain from the nasty texts. Please have the decency to say them to my face but he just walked away. I am sick of feeling punched in the gut whenever he sends them.
And then to top it all off, he has reserved a fancy restaurant for 2 for Wed next week. The email confirmation came up on our computer. He's certainly not taking me. He never has, not anywhere like this, I got dates in Chinatown.
