Luke I really try..to be more attractive, not cry.. though that is hard..I hate that I cry..
This part of Germany is quiet.One 1 theatre 30 minutes away.
One of the things I haven't done is make a lot of new friends here. Bad mistake.. my H was my best friend we spent our free time together.. He is driving 5 hours to get here.. he doesn't say why.. I think to organise selling the house..but it seems rude to go out..if it was more regular I would go out.
So I need to be disinterested in his life..in his recent holiday.. His first without me in 15 years...blah.. I should not have thought of that.
thanks for following up Luke.. I hate this useless out of control feeling..
