What you did felt bad? It hurts you? No right? Well dont think about it... As I told you before, ACCEPT, dont judge, you are trying to put up a strategy for this...if I say this like that if I do this like that...enjoy those times, now they are past, one day at a time, today its a new day. Go out and keep loving yourself, let her do whatever she wants, once you start judging and acting up.... Back to stage 1.
I love my W, I haven hear from her since she left, I didnt hear from her family or friends, totally dissapeared.... If she comes back tomorrow and ask me to spend time with her, I will enjoy that time....I will not tell her but girl you didnt contacted me in 2 months at all, what have you being doing? This is not the way to reconcile... Because she will feel judge and run away again.
What you are looking for its for reasurance and security she wants things the way they were so you "know" whats going on... Remember before when you were together? You had " security" she wanted to be with u forever...then one day she BD you and devastation took place.... Enjoy what you have and look for things that makes you happy and make you love yourself, when around her just be you, and enjoy in a normal way, if you dont want to spend time with her then dont and learn to listen to those needs... Nothing in this life its for sure, but if you love yourself its not gonna botter you that much what she does or doesnt do...
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
