I am still feeling so much pain. I wish I could figure out how to repair myself, but my life doesn't seem to be moving forward.
My divorce (and wifes anger) have ramped up. She was asked to leave the apartment, on our property that she has been using for almost a year and a half, since she moved out of our home. For the past 6 months or so, she has been living with OM, so it seemed to my siblings that the time had come to move her out of our business. Needless to say, that didn't go over well and lots of threats and anger were expressed. She and Om started a page full of "poor me" on Facebook, and bashed me as well as my family up one side and down the other. It is so tacky and uncalled for, but something that I have no control over. I just have to grin and bare it, though it is embarrassing to know my friends see this sort of thing. I was given threats of taking my daughter away, harsh legal retaliation, the whole 9 yards. I understand they were just words expressed in anger. She doesn't have the ability to hurt me legally, but that doesn't lessen the sting I feel. It is just so hard for me to imagine how two people, partners, who were so loving at one time, who brought a daughter into this world that means more to them than anything, can end up where we are today.
I still can't sleep through a night. I still wonder all day long, "HOW DID THIS HAPPEN"...."WHY". I have accepted that I can't change it, so this morning I wake up, breath in, breath out and go to work. Divorce isn't something I wish on my worst enemy
