melissa

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Thank you!

So apparently H asked if he could drive on the filed trip and the teacher told him no. (WTF?)

It's like there is a conspiracy against me . . . sigh. So now I am back to square one.

In other news, my H is beyond pissed off at me, I assume because I didn't agree with his proposed parenting plan (where he has the kids for 6 nights in a row in each two week block, until mid May, when he is done with a class he is teaching, then he wants 50/50).

He didn't even come into TKD. He sat in his car the whole time, and then when I brought the kids out, he didn't even scowl at me - he simply refused to acknowledge my existence. I had to try three times to give him his mail. It was so obnoxious it was ridiculous. Isn't he the one who thinks we should get along for the kids' sake? Or was that just when he thought I wasn't getting along with him enough?

I don't know why I continue to be surprised at just how delusional he is/was about how this whole D thing would work. I remember a few months ago literally LOLing at some things that 3boyz's H said, and wow, I think my H is just the same. Just in some sort of weird la la land. He truly thought that his idea of how things were going to go was going to be the reality. Yes, he can walk away from the M, without my input or permission, but that's where his control of this situation ends. I don't have to do anything he wants, let alone do it on his timeline.

Enough about him. My weekend was great. I won't lie, it was dampened a bit by the fact that my H kept contacting me about difficult issues. I am taking the kids on vacation again at the end of the month - can I set a boundary that I do not want to hear from him while I am on vacation, other than if he wants to speak with the kids?

It was great to see my brother and his family. We celebrated my mother's 70th birthday, and I think she was really happy just having the whole family together. It was nice to be with my brother and SIL, laugh a lot, and just feel comfortable and loved. And I love seeing my kids play with their cousins. I wish they lived closer. None of us wanted to come home. I was watching my brother and how he acts with his W, and I could see what I desperately wanted but never had in my M . . . just the whole "team" feeling. Yes, they bicker and they disagree, but the have each other's backs. Right now, the thought of another R someday is way in the back of my mind, but it's good to know that maybe someday I can have that.

I am soooooo happy that we are now on daylight time and we get more light in the evenings! Light and warmth make me happy. I love spring and summer . . . I feel more alive and it's easier to keep up my PMA.

Now I am just waiting for my convertible to arrive . . .