It's hard to enjoy the positives without developing expectations and then being let down when the behavior changes. You're doing great. Try to sound upbeat and kind when he calls.
Me:33 H:35 M: 12 years D-15 S-6 Bomb: 6-2013 OW: 11/2013 Kids and I moved out: 11/2013 when he continued to lie about affair Kids and I moved back in 12/2013 H moved out 2/2014