WH, You will do a lot better as time goes on. Right now, you are still recovering from a move and lawyer's fees. Give yourself a break...you are getting there and it all takes time. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
