So this song by Christina Aguilera has become an anthem for me. Anyone who doesn't know or hasn't heard this song, I would highly recommend listening to it. It seems to fit a lot of situations on this MLC board. The bridge, in particular, I find especially fitting:
"How could this man I thought I knew Turn out to be unjust so cruel Could only see the good in you Pretend not to see the truth You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself Through living in denial But in the end you'll see YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I ain't gonna stop There is no turning back I've had enough"
So anytime I am in a funk I listen to this song and I pick myself up a bit.
Going over finances I am not where I wanted to be, but I am still doing pretty good. I have paid all my bills and still have over $400 left. I don't want to spend it though, I want to save it. I am hoping nothing else comes up until I get paid again. I am trying to build up this emergency savings because you just never know. I don't get paid for another week and I do have some cash I can use. It just seems like it's not enough. I thought about using it to pay ahead some bills but then I don't want to get overextended in case something else comes up. I am the complete opposite of H. If we were together and we still had money after paying all the bills he would spend it. I am afraid to touch it. I still have anxiety issues when it comes to money.
Right now I don't know what I would do without child support and maintenance. I am hoping once I catch up from my move I can put those monies into savings or something. I don't want to have to depend on H's support. He is a loose cannon. I keep telling myself I have only been on my own for six weeks so I am doing pretty good. But I really want to do a lot better.
WH
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
