Hi Mach! I am glad to hear your finger is healing...somewhat
"What do YOU want now in your life ??? What do you need in your life to be happy, and successful ??? What are you working toward ??? You sound really well grounded since the second wave has hit.. I just haven't seen you really answer that (not that anyone asked, just wondering)"
Great questions Mach!
This latest situation with H has really made me think...I am tired of all this...there is a good, decent H in there somewhere...I just haven't seen that one for a very long time.
What I am doing now to move forward is seeing an IC to heal ME and reconcile things that happened to me in my past so that I can be a better, stronger CW. To lose the "fear" that I have hid behind my whole life. Once I get a get a little bit of a handle on that, I think the answers to the rest of the questions will reveal themselves.
Seriously, I was content with just getting by, just having enough. TBH, I cannot answer those other questions... yet...
As for H...
"I would venture to say that he felt somewhat proud of himself because the guy was younger, and a Marine, and he laid the smack down on him."
Yeah...but in the light of day..that young, Marine was falling down drunk...not much to feel proud of there.
This newest situation with H has made detachment a whole lot easier for me.
BD-Aug 2009 OW Confirmed H moves out Dec 2009 D filed by H-Mar 2010 H asks to come home April 2011 BD AGAIN 1-15-2014! H seeing FOW! H ran away again! 1-18-2014
