Part 2-H moving out

[bluesgal]

Hey GB,

I guess we were both struggling last night. Sometimes I feel the same way you do. Maybe I just screwed this up and he left and maybe he'll have an awesome R with the next person. But then I remember how strange he is now. I think if it were about me, he wouldn't have ditched on his kids so much. He would have probably pursued D by now and been more reasonable to talk to.

And then I think about the reality of D. Right now I have:

My kids 100% of the time
No strange woman half raising my kids
No courtrooms and lawyers
I still have my home
I have ins through H employer

All of this changes if I file for D. So, even though it kills me to feel like my life is aimless and one big question mark, it feels better than the opposite of above.

I'm here with you.