GB- none of this is your fault, you have to let go. that just means give him space, find something to take your mind off these thoughts. We all have them. It's hard to make sense of something so nuts, you really can't. You are a GOOD person, nothing is going to change that. I know it's hard to not let them affect you and your moods. There is nothing you can say or do to change this, just have to let it play out. I know you know all these things from reading on the boards, you're just having a bad night . I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. Maybe go do a workout, take a walk, talk to God (if you are spiritual). I too go over it in my head constantly, always the same result - I feel like I have 2 options, 1 is roll over and die and 2 is keep on living and I choose 2. You're young, this is temporary, yes it hurts like he// but you will grow stronger every day. It's ok to still grieve, it JUST happened. Keep reminding yourself that you are a good person, you're beautiful, intelligent, and you have 3 lovely children that need you and you will pick yourself up and dust yourself off and GAL as if he's never coming back. You're not alone GB - and I think we all have a pity party once in awhile, I think it's natural - we're here for you (((hugs)))) I hope you're feeling better by the time you read this and got some rest.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
. I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. Maybe go do a workout, take a walk, talk to God (if you are spiritual). I too go over it in my head constantly, always the same result - I feel like I have 2 options, 1 is roll over and die and 2 is keep on living and I choose 2. You're young, this is temporary, yes it hurts like he// but you will grow stronger every day. It's ok to still grieve, it JUST happened. Keep reminding yourself that you are a good person, you're beautiful, intelligent, and you have 3 lovely children that need you and you will pick yourself up and dust yourself off and GAL as if he's never coming back. You're not alone GB - and I think we all have a pity party once in awhile, I think it's natural - we're here for you (((hugs)))) I hope you're feeling better by the time you read this and got some rest.