So just to confirm, tomorrow when I see her at my daughters soccer wind up dinner, I should treat her as a friendly neighbour? Even though inside I am devastated that she went to see OM. I will not of course bring any of that up, just difficult to wrap my head around this detachment as being a positive thing, but I know it is. I can put on my happy face anyways, as tonight has been much harder to stomach. My kids keep me distracted and happy, they are my angels
She also sent me a text while she was there. I was torn if I should respond, but I feel it didn't warrant a response, as A) I didn't want to talk to her and B) I felt she was trying to check in with me. I worry a bit that she will feel " see, I text him, and he doesn't respond, he never cared about me". This is opposed to the message that I am trying to send that I do not accept or approve of her A.
I'm unsure where to draw my line still, as I do want to talk to her, but I know any conversation I would have got into tonight probably would have not gone well. As well, I would have felt worse if I responded and then heard nothing back.
Ah, sometimes the frustration of this sitch can be overwhelming. I cannot control it, only me. So hard to implement what I want to do, but I'm trying
