Part 2-H moving out

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks BG. He is an attention seeker and is extremely sensitive which brings me to..,,,,

I' m just venting. Part of what attracted me to h was his sensitivity. He always had employment woes and now has a job where he works a great deal and seems to enjoy it. Even though he did a 180 , hangs out with people 15 years younger and had a ton of MLC script , I believe my constant rejection hurt him and I wonder if we could ever be anything again anyway. He says I told him if he didn't get me pregnant with a. 3 rd kid, I would get pregnant by someone else. I never recalled doing that, but that hurt him immensely. I don't remember saying it but I guess it's possible I did.

I don't know. I'm very hurt that he used the term " I don't want this relationship to work ." I take that as it could, but I don't want it to. I'm just better off not seeing or hearing from him. And yes , I know I rejected his LL ( touch ) over and over. I'm not sure why I did. I do know I love him and I'm so very hurt that he won't give us a chance.

He says he's broken and empty but I wonder if he really did love me ? He says he always loved me more than I loved him and I wasn't committed. He is the one who left. He said he is broken and empty. Isn't this crazy what in about to admit? I'm afraid he will finally address his issues and be better for someone else and not me. I know that's selfish of me as I'm trying to work on my intimacy issues, need to be right, and allowing myself to be vulnerable. It always bothered me the way he struggled to be around the kids ( no coping skills) but I
Like everyone else here did not want a broken family.

Maybe he isn't in MLC. Maybe he just got sick of my rejection and crap. Ugh. I'm sorry to throw up. I'm just in a place. I'm sorry to be a downer.