Back in November, I was working long hours and travelling for work. Our nanny came to stay with us to help my husband out. He really liked the support and suggested that with a new baby due in January she should become live in. I was hesitant but before I knew what happened she had giving notice on her apartment and moved all her stuff in.
When I finally got a break from work, home life was strained. My husband didn't seem to enjoy having me around and spent most of his time hanging out with our Nanny.
On a trip to NY in December after a couple of glasses of wine he told me he didn't think he loved me. This was followed by mean comments every time he's been drinking since. There have also been a lot of heating arguments concerning the time he was spending with her.
I understand why he needed this "friendship". I was knackered and depressed when I was pregnant.
After all this he told me he hasn't been happy for a very long time and that in his head we had been separated for quite a while (we've been sleeping in separate rooms for months now).
Without his consent but in his presence I told the nanny that she must move out. I decided that the situation was getting me down and that it must not continue. Now my husband is also moving out. However, he doesn't want it to be public knowledge, nor does he want our 2 year old to know.
I have been trying the last resort technique for the last couple of weeks and there have been some promising signs. For instances its my birthday in two weeks and he wants to plan the day and do something just the two of us.
This morning, I went to speak to him at 5am and the door was locked. When he answered I realised that the nanny had gone into the toilet without the light on. I feel like if this was innocent then she wouldn't have reacted like that. Now I feel stupid for trying to save my marriage. Is it worth saving?!?
Thanks for reading- I promise this is actually the condensed version!
