Isnt that beatiful that you are at least awre of your feelings? What I great gift, live with them and let the universe take care of everything. Having feelings its who you are as well, and hapiness and sadness. Are both valid feelings, today its sadness...tomorrow? We dont know but live with it as well and to best of our abilities
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.