Thanks Ye, I know that what I've been doing the last couple of days is def moving backwards. I also know that DB is more about becoming a better you and learning to love yourself. Afterall, if you don't love yourself who else can?

I guess being in limbo is part of my problem. H said he wants a divorce, really has no plan, is more than likely involved with OW. He's willing to spend a couple of thousand dollars to fix an old truck but won't do anything to fix his family. I'm just really sad, frustrated and angry. My head is telling me to let him go but my heart doesn't want to.

I'm in a little slump right now, I'll turn it around.

J

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since