so my H is coming to stay again this weekend. I have not spoken with him for 2 weeks. It was making me tired to text and wait for a reply.It is easier to not bother. He has been away for business as well. I suspect but am surprised how little I really care that he has included a holiday with the OW on this trip. What does annoy me is that he told me that was not possible.
He continues to give mixed messages.. divorce definitely divorce may be later, share a house, find your own apartment, He is easier since I have stopped disagreeing. He wanted to be separated , we were and are. I stopped him when he started talking about me insisting on trying with the marriage ( that was 3 months ago) I said I value myself much more that .. to want to be with someone who is not interested in me. I think he was surprised but I meant it.
We have a lot to do together selling, packing, cleaning up.. but I am unsure why he comes here...I feel sad for him, he said he does not make his jokes anymore they were always corny but very much him. This week I will be asking him to leave earlier.. I have a run planned.. Not sure if this is detached..I am still sad. If he wanted to begin discussions I would. He will help me find my new apartment but I suspect he will like me to just go away so he is not reminded of how far he has fallen from his standards He did say if we were separated then he is not having an affair. I reminded him we were married when he began to be with some one else... it will be always be an affair. The rewriting history is just annoying. So I am flat and lethargic..detached or depressed guess the result is the same...
