Yesterday did not go well at all. W came home late (as usual). She stopped to get materials to do a project for a co-worker. I was actually in a good mood yesterday but once again as soon as she arrived an ate all she did was text and Snap Chat people. The night ended on a sour note when she started questioning a working relationship that I have. Back story, a female co-worker that now works in a different department had commented months ago that I seemed to be the perfect man and that if both were single she would "throw her hat into the ring". Having experienced an EA/PA 9 years ago, I quickly negated her comments and since have kept our conversations business oriented with the occasionally "how's life" conversation.
So last night my W brought this up wondering if I was holding back information of which I am not. She didn't seem to believe what I was saying and then just became even more detached as the night went on even not speaking when she got into bed and she always says "goodnight". Because of this I deviated from Sandi's list and found myself trying to get attention from her. She in turn indicated that everything was fine. So I just laid in the bed angry, really angry. I just wanted to explode. I don't see how or know if I can truly do this. How are we supposed to GAL and to the 180s if this in turn just causes our S to make us feel like crap.
This morning came and barely any emotion from her.
Again, needless to say I could use some encouragement.
Me: 40 W: 39 D: 16 S: 21 R: 20 Years (married 18) 9/2013 W indicated that she wanted to leave.
