Om Betrayo I hear you, do you see? You said you lover unconditionally but the reality its that you dont love yourself unconditionally, as long as you dont love yourself that way you cant love her that way... You had an affair, ok where is the problem? That was your choice at that point and it doesnt make you less worth it, it was just what you choose and thats fine, accept it that way. Now lets say she comes back with you tomorrow, you will be emptionally happy and you will think you have to made amends for the in your eyes awfull thing you did by having an affair... In a couple of months she is picking up her things and not looking back... Now, you accept what you did and because tv, your parents friends and family and even the president tells you that what you did is wrong you start judging yourself again... Well what if you leave behind all those beliefs and embrace the biggest gift life its giving you, time, time to accept what you did and love yourself no matter what and underestand that it was a choice you did at certain point without judging. Only then, when you are able to look at yourself with the eyes of a nond judgamental person, then and only then you will be able to love unconditionally.
You dont believe this? I believe in God, God loves unconditionally, no matter what I do he never judges me, and its always there to help me find what I need at each time, it doesnt matter at all what I do, God never calls me at my cellphone and says: hey dude I am God and what you did was wrong... Do you see this? Well you want to love your wife or other people unconditionally but there is only one condition...honey I will love you more if you are with me and you love with me and you are my wife and we have kids and all that...if for whatever reason you dont follow those premises honey, I will have to stop loving you.... Well Betrayo let me tell you that there is no unconditional love overthere...
Honey I love you no matter what you do, no matter who you are with and no matter what...thats is unconditional love and only if you accept her completelly the way she is doing things, only that way you can go upstairs to the room of the unconditional lovers, and trust me, only in that room is where she wants to stay, so use this time to love yourself unconditionally and others and then and only then, she will listen to you, otherways none of us here can tell you what to do to manipulate her... We are too busy following sandy rules and loving ourselves to spend time changing the mind of others
You are doing great and all that you are doing are just choices, I strongly recommend you one choice now, choose to live fully and follow sandy rules, its never TOO LATE TO LOVE YOURSELF UNCONDITIONALLY...never.
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
