Recent development today, W sent me a text asking about paying the bills and rent. Not sure where this coming from or how she knows when they were paid or not paid. Make a long story short I sent her a couple of text validating and emphasizing her feelings about our sitch.
Me: I'm sorry you are having to deal with of this. And congrats on winning your championship W: thanks and if your not going to pay the bills i will take my name off everything. Me: I wanted nothing more then to be there celebrating with you. Then I validated her feelings. Me:I know this has been difficult for you and I understand why you are feeling this way and I understand you want time away from. I've never said one bad word about you nor will I. You changed my life and I can't thank you enough. I know our sitch is difficult but I want you to know I still care deeply about you and would love the chance to work on this together. W: I appreciate your words buys its over. There is nothing that can be done to undo the damage. Please sign the papers where you won't get served I don't want it to be embarrassing. -(I appreciate her for that. Even tho she has threaten to have me served a couple if times if I didn't sign. At least she hasn't followed thru on that.) Me: I guess I just don't understand what damage can't be undone. W: I'm not having a conversation with you I just wanted to know if you paid the bills you were late on for some reason.
I am not sure I have ever been giving a reason for all this. Other than for her to say sorry just can't fix everything and too much has been done. What have I done? That's all I would like to know. What has been done that is so bad that can't be overcome or fixed? No affair, no addictions, no money issues. One time l lost control and reacted negatively at a bar. But to say nothing can be done to undo the damage is hard me to understand.
Convo continued. Me: I hate that you are feeling this way and going thru all these emotions, I wouldn't wish them upon anyone. I know you feel like you have to do this for Yourself but just know we can have a bigger and better relationship than ever before. Open your heart and let your guard down, lobe and feelings return. Peo,e survive affairs and addictions and come back better than ever, we can do the same. W: please go sign. I don't want you to be served and pay the bills on time. That's all I ask. Me: I'm going to sign them, I don't want any resentment to build up or make things worse for you. This is happening so fast and emotions are making all of our decisions. Both of us need to take a step back and accept responsibility for our own actions and realize are life together and individual lives aren't as bad as we are making it out to be. We had a lot going for us, we don't need to cut each other off that's not healthy for either of us. We just need to maintain hope and faith in each other and remember the good times not the bad times of 2 months. Our friendship needs repairing first before anything else. Keep the faith and I know I'm here as your backbone for support. Lets be a success story. In time, lets be a new, loving team. W: I've not made my life to be bad at all. I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Hopefully you will get to that point too. I'll talk to you later.
The last text by my W has to be typical WAW speak,is it not?
I know I broke some DBing rules, but I tried to validate her feelings for maybe the first time since this all began.
Any vets out there. Any input/advice/suggestions/scolding/questions/thoughts?
Thanks again to everyone.
___________________________________________________________ M: 32 W: 26 M 7 months, T 4 years M: 2nd M W: 1st M No kids
living separately 1/26/14 W files D 2/24/14 D final 4/28/14