Wishing You Were Here and then Setting It On Fire

[ericmsant2]

I wonder if he realizes that one of these days, I am just going to stop answering because this is just too weird,

You could always try this ^^^ now. Maybe you end up with a different result.

I wonder if I am not sending out a wrong message by continuing to answer his texts.

Good question to ponder...or is it? What if you respond, what is he going to think, what if you do not respond, what is he going to think? Hmm....sounds like you can go round and round with this one - almost like a hamster wheel.

I don't want all my thoughts of Skippy to go away.

IMO, they never really do. Making a stance for you, is not going to erase the good times.

although that sometimes smacks of hypocrisy to me since I am still so angry at how he treated me.

Why then do you still respond - even if it is short? What is the worse that could happen?

I can reply and my replies don't "mean" anything either.

Can you honestly say that? Maybe I am wrong...i just think that deep down inside they do mean something.

I guess there is a part of me which really does not want him to think that everything's OK - look GF or new GF, everything is fine between us, I am not that bad, she is cool with everything.

Because I am not.

Then why not tell him?

Wonka makes a good point about working through the anger piece by piece....maybe the piece that is missing is the one where you really let him know how you feel. When you really tell him that it is NO LONGER okay for HIM to contact you at the whim, that YOU deserve better than that. Mabye it is time for PORTIA to take HER POWER back. I dunno...you know best Portia. Me...I choose to never get on the hamster wheel..not for her...for Me.

I would not mind a weekend at the spa too

I totally recomend the spa day! Hell I think I am gonna book mine right now.

Peace,
Eric