Def on a downward spiral. Maybe it's because we've been in contact and the more that happens the more upset I get that he did this the way he did. Kids are on spring break this week, and the time change is getting us a little bit.
Made the mistake of sending him an email. Was cleaning up my emails and came across one he had sent me awhile ago. It was a joke, a picture of something he said he wanted. I replied and said "just think, a couple more years and we could of got one, haha. " I know I shouldn't have, I did it because I wanted a response from him which I knew I wasn't going to get. Mad at myself now. Just wish I could get past this emotional rut I'm in right now.
J
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since