T-boned - we are definitely suffering similar paths! I feel exactly like that - I am strong! I have a handle on it, then bam, yep - down again. I have not had any of those crying spells for a few weeks but I'm sure there is another one lurking around just waiting to spill over. I know it's good to just let that out once in awhile to get through it and feel the pain, but still I hate going through this. And how you said "all is based on how well I know him" exactly - and that's how I feel too - also why I think sometimes he will never come back. I don't have contact either, just that one to exchange things he left - from here on out it will be a check he owes me for health insurance until I get the final divorce papers. He'll probably mail that. He's shown no interest in visiting with the pets which were OUR babies. After the papers are done, I guess it could be never again unless he decides to. Our divorce was simple and once the papers are finalized (next month some time) and I have a copy then I will refi the house in my name and that will be that. Yeah splitting all the bills up and removing his name from accounts was painful, even our hard drive on the computer is named after us and I need to rename it so it's not this constant reminder. I wiped everything else away. I can't believe it's only been 2 months since BD. Just blows my mind that our entire life has been completely upturned and changed in the blink of an eye. I have considered a therapist, you mentioned you go to one, do you find it helpful? I have a list from my doctor of the local ones but i haven't made that leap yet - thanks again for posting and checking on me - it really does mean a lot.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
