blues there is something that sounds so familiar to me... the expectations you have of your spouse that go from completely reliable to null and void. It's so hard to trust someone for so many years and then just let go of the fact that the same person is no longer trustworthy. I had trouble with it myself. The first reality kicked in when my car tire popped and he didn't go to any extent to help me (just told me where I could buy a tire). The H I knew would take work off make sure I was ok, fix the tire, and made sure I got home. That's gone now. It's hard to take in, and it's also about learning that you're the only person you can depend on. But whatever doesn't kill us will make us stronger. So keep pushing forward.
But whatever doesn't kill us will make us stronger. So keep pushing forward.