Please do yourself a favor and read that link I posted^^^^^. I Really think it will help with your stitch. (I know it has helped me and ours stitches are very similar)
I've asked so many of the same questions as you, and still do, but one thing remains the same...
...You have to decide what YOU want to do and I have to decide what I want to to do.
Have u every listened to Ziggy Marley "True to myself"? I heard this song many times before, but up until today never understood the meaning of the song. Have listen I think u might like it. It rings true to soooo many stitches on here (Atleast I think it does) http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yMEARFbMh0I
Me: 39 W: 33 M: 9 years T: 10 years S7 S10 BD 10/19/13 W Filed 11/25/13 EA Confirmed 2/2/14 (no evidence of PA) WAW moved out 3/15/14