My DB coach said hope is good while you are getting a life because who wants to live a hopeless life.
Yeah, but what kind of hope is good? Hoping that you will find someone new who loves you, appreciates you and treats you the way you should be treated? Hope that you will have a good life even if H isn't in it? Hope that your kids will be OK? I have all those hopes, but I find it incredibly difficult to hope for anything that involves my H because I am invariably disappointed, which means I somehow attached some expectations to that hope, and I feel like that pushes me backwards rather than forward.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
