tx georgiabelle.. was I doing it again? I thought that my last post was recognizing it and therefore pulled myself back. I was really just posting it...I totally catch myself looking for angles and analyzing... I was just venting and posting my weekend.
I totally backed off again... I didn't answer his last posts (they weren't questions). Re-focused (hence the last post), watched TV and just got in from picking up my DD.
I too (for the most part), figure if he wants to talk to me, he will call, etc...
He is the one who stated he wanted to have LOTS of talks, before going to the mediator again (as he is too cheap). He figures we can iron out some stuff first and what can't be sorted, leave to the mediator. SO, I "assumed" he meant what he said, and I "expected" that these "talks" would happen over the weekend.
In the big picture, I really do not want to "force" something to happen. I deserve better. I deserve and want someone who wants to be "in it" with me. I know this, and am trying to raise the bar and not settle for stuff that wasn't working in the old relationship.
Yes, I will let things happen as they are meant to be... but how do I do just that? Do I keep myself open/available (too convenient) or do I protect myself and stay shut? I don't know how to be middle ground. I don't know what that looks like!!
Your comment was worth the full buck !!! Tx!!
Magic
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
