Hey T-boned, thanks for posting, it means a lot to me I'm sorry your phone call didn't go as well as you would have liked. I know what you mean with the voice..., I felt good after seeing him but then I start thinking too much and over analyzing (yes i'm supposed to detach!) and i've been down all weekend. Haven't heard from him since that day and I know I shouldn't expect to. As for the PMA - it comes and goes. I'm a planner by nature and it's easy for me to follow all the sandi's rules and this whole DB is sort of mapped out for me, I'm good with following instructions so I jumped right in once I found this place. I read most of the stories here, so it sometimes is a downer because i realize this is just going to take forever, it already feels like forever & then he may never come back or I may not want him back by then. Trying to let go and let God and GAL. I did not go out with friends this weekend, spent some time chatting with friends online but only went out of the house to run errands and grocery shop. I painted the ceiling Saturday which was a big job and today I grocery shopped and cleaned the basement. Kept myself busy both days which is a good distraction. I baked a quiche for myself and walked the dogs for my workout which really helps. I am not hating all this alone time.... but then there will be some silly thing that I want to share with him and I can't. It could always be worse. I'm very lucky in a lot of ways, he could have been more of a jerk. Just so many reminders. I'm learning patience!
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
